Tuesday, October 2, 2012

Losing it

The title of this particular post is really about 2 things.  You probably already know what they are, because they're common themes on my blog, but really... I feel the need to remind you.

1) Losing my mind.  I do it on the daily.  Lately, I've been losing my mind with wedding planning.  Why the flip is it so expensive to get married???

2)  Losing weight.  As of Sunday, I have lost 5.2 pounds since I started WW.  That's pretty good, I reckon, considering falling off of the wagon at the wedding.  My co-workers decided to look up how many points were in my fried chicken goodness breakfast... and mind you, we only calculated what I ACTUALLY ATE, not what came on the plate.

You enjoyed seeing this so much last week, it's making an encore appearance.
42 points.  Yes, you are reading that right.  That's nearly double my daily points allowance.  So to see that I managed to bounce back and still lose a net amount of weight is a good thing.  Long live periodic indulgence!

Some of you have maybe been a tiny bit skeptical about why I would want to lose weight.  And I appreciate your worry and concern.  You're right, my weight is in the healthy range for my height.  It is, however, above the cap that I set for myself when I was legitimately overweight.  Yes, I really was much larger at one point, and when I finally lost all of the weight, I set a value that I never wanted to surpass again without being pregnant.  Well, I surpassed it, and by over 10 pounds.  Oops.  And thinking about that made me think about how much my weight has gone up and down since I graduated from high school.  Since my facebook account launched in 2005 (because I've had FB for-evah), I can show you pictures of me from that point forward, so that you too, can share in my weight loss woes.  I think it's interesting to see how I changed each year.

2005:
2006:
2007:
2008:
2009:
2010:

2011:
2012:
Did you make it all the way here?  Really?!?!  You deserve a prize, ho-ly cow.  Honestly, as I was thinking about this post, I got those not good feelings remembering just how much my weight fluctuated in college.  Most people go up or down 10-15 pounds in college.  I fluctuated 30 pounds from my school year weight and my summer weight.  Obviously, while I love the midwest, it did not do good things for my waist.  And then I graduated, and lost 45 pounds.  And I have to say, I did a good job of keeping it off until 2011.  Those pictures I have from 2008-2010 are my favorite ever.  Hello, skinny Kristen!

So there you have it... why I have a drive to lose it.  Because I've been big.  I've been small.  And honestly, I prefer small for myself.  And that's all the motivation I need to make this happen.

8 comments:

  1. You are rocking it girl! I truly believe it's ok to divulge every now and then. We only live once! I would like to lose 8 lbs. That would put me in the athletic range for my bmi. And I would like to have a flat stomach. I just hate how after I eat I look 4 months pregnant.

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  2. you can do it!! and that's awesome that you managed to still lose weight with all that yummy mid-western food lol

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  3. I'm proud of you for losing weight! I know it's hard to do.

    I'm sorry you've struggled with it so much, I can't really relate but I know what it's like to struggle with something.. fair? fair.

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  4. I think people especially a woman has to do what makes her feel good and healthy. We always harp on healthy this and healthy that but healthy is really only half the self esteem. I truly believe we are born into this world ill equipped as women to believe we are all beautiful, but somewhere along the way it clicks. Looks like it has for you! Go girl!!

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  5. You inspire me every time... I have to find my regular routine at the gym. I still haven't found my groove!

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  6. I don't think it's a problem you want to lose weight. Honestly, there is nothing wrong with being on the low end of the healthy weight range. And actually, I don't buy that healthy weight crap, because I have been "underweight" for the majority of my life (till just this past year, actually), and I've been perfectly healthy. Every body is different, and we should each listen to our own bodies and what they tell us.

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  7. I can relate to your story so much, Kristen. I went through similar fluctuations and it does suck. I know you'll be able to get back to a place where YOU feel happy with your body. Best of luck!

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