This refers to my blood type.
This also refers to my personality type. That's right guys and gals... I'm not type-A... I'm type A+. As in I'm painfully high strung. So high strung you could strum me like a guitar string. It's not something I'm particularly proud of, either. Who wants to be known as the girl who has to control EVERYTHING?
But that's me. I always have a plan. I always have a way that I need for my life to go. When it doesn't follow that particular trajectory, I tend to come apart at the seams. This means that while I'm A+ on everything else, my attitude can really suck.
I want you all to know that I try to be okay with things when they change suddenly, or the plan is not followed. It is a constant effort on my part to be more "go with the flow", and less fighting upstream just so that I get what I want. I tried it with the fact that A was not going to be home over the weekend, and our trip to the mountains was not going to happen. I worked all weekend to look at the bright side and not be mopey. But by Monday, I felt awful. I kept getting headaches, and my mood was deplorable. Until I talked about it. I word vomited about how upset I was that the plan didn't work, and how I was angry that my plan for a great long weekend did not see fruition.
Please note, I'm not blaming anyone. I'm the one that bought A's plane ticket, so clearly I wanted him to be there. I'm just mad that something I had been looking forward to came to such an unfortunate end. And until I acknowledged how much that upset me, I continued to feel physical ick.
I really don't know what to do. I don't want to be a Debbie downer when things go my way. But when I don't come right out and express my disappointment, I end up with even bigger issues. I feel like this is one of those no-win situations.
What would you do in this situation? I would love for someone to give me some input.