Santa, it's been 19 years since I last wrote you a letter. I hope you forgive me. See, I have a hard enough time remembering to write and send letters to my penpal Mia, so sending letters to a fictional character is asking far too much. However, since I am a disgruntled blogger who is trying to get into the holiday spirit, I feel like it's fair to I should write you a letter.
I have been a good girl this year. I haven't tried to kill a single person, or even caused massive property destruction. I feel like this deserves an award, seeing as how a lot of people have made it their mission to drive me insane these days. Also, I have worked really, really hard to not turn into a bridezilla. Some people would tell you that I am one. They are wrong, Santa. I'm just organized.
So since I've been a good girl, I would really like for you to bring me lots of goodies on your sleigh. I already gave a list to my mom, and so I'm going to give you a completely different list. We don't want for the two of you to get me the same things!!!
#1: Patience. Oh Santa. I need lots of this. Up until a year or so ago, I thought I had a tolerable amount of patience. However, I feel like what I had has been used up, and I' a little Katy Perry "firework" anymore. So if you could bring me heaps and heaps, that would be fantastic.
#2: Calm. I have not felt calm for a while, Santa. I feel like there is a tornado that sweeps through my mind about once a day, and my own inner FEMA is only about as useful as the real one. So please Santa, bring me some calm in any manner possible. At this point, I would probably even take it in pill form.
#3: Clarity. I know that the answers are right there, and I just can't see them. Please send the fog elsewhere, and let me understand.
#4: THAT Friend. Yes, I have friends. I have great friends. But I don't have a Christina Yang to my Meredith Grey. And I yearn for that friendship. It's the Shay and Amy friendship... our own real life Shamy, blogland. I have an Ammon, and for that I'm so grateful, but to have a girlfriend to be that person... I just need it.
#5: Acceptance. Some of the things that are on the horizon are not mutable. I will have to weather them and deal. And that's really hard, Santa. I'm a type-A, crazy bia who wants to control the world. Apparently, I am no more capable of taking over the world than Pinky and the Brain were all those years ago. So please bring me the tools I need to help deal with this.
Okay Santa, there's my list. I expect it will be no trouble, since the elves don't even have to make a single thing. You're the best. Oh, and can you bring me some candy canes too? You know I love those. There is leftover halloween candy in our freezer, please help yourself on Christmas. And remember, we'll be staying at my parents' house, so bring my gifts there. Capiche?